As I've mentioned and you probably already know if you've stuck with me during this past year, it hasn't been the easiest one. I was going through my files, to make the "Outfits of 2017" post (that's coming out tomorrow probably) and goooosh, did it make me emotional or what? Even though I was really trying to stick with only the outfit pictures. I've never been so messed up that I was in the beginning of last year, and there were many moments when I was thinking that I'm not going to survive this. Well, with the help of friends, family and therapy, I made it back to my feet, and if there's one thing that's sure, it's that I'll never bee that sad in my life again. It literally just isn't possible! So, in many ways, 2017 was a year of self growth and self searching.
My 2017 in a nutshell: crying my eyes out in Kuopio after coming home with a one way ticket and my heart in a thousand pieces. After that my friend offered me a job in Helsinki, and another friend a roof on top of my head, so after thinking about my options for a day, I decided to try living in Helsinki. In Helsinki I was working a lot, and working out even more, just to be so tired at nights that I'd fall asleep fast before the anxiety kicking in. When the moment of making decisions came, I was confused and didn't know if I should continue the life I had started in Helsinki, if I should move to somewhere completely new or if Barcelona would still have something to offer me. After a certain long weekend, I started seeing signs of Barcelona literally everywhere and the biggest one was when a friend of mine told that he'd have a room for me in a nice apartment in a nice neighborhood. My heart was telling me to go, so in the beginning of May, I found myself from El Prat (the airport of Barcelona) looking for a familiar face. That familiar face brought me my favorite sushi too, and I got back together with that familiar face a month later.
Well, after a summer of love, I was back to listening to my play list "Love is murder" on Spotify and drinking wine until I fell asleep. And that's pretty much how the fall went by. I kept myself busy with the blog, moved it here to Nouw, and started seeing results of all of the hard work. I spent so much time with my friends during the fall that I think they almost got sick of me, hahah. But they never let it show, because they knew that my fear was to break down. The autumn went by in a blur and all of a sudden it was winter. I changed the store that I was working in which was a fun change, started doing some collaborations, and wasn't really comfortable living in the apartment that I was staying at anymore. Then my sister came to visit and I followed her to Finland about a week later when she left to spend the Christmas with my family. And now I'm here. All moved out from the old apartment, thanks for the help of my friends and waiting for the new year and the new apartment. This feels like a start for something new for sure. How many times am I allowed to say that I really feel like 2018 is going to be my year, without jinxing it?